Let me start of summarizing the first four days in a few brief phrases and words: sleeping in a homeless shelter, praying with homeless, holding a woman beaten by her boyfriend and praying with her, helping a homeless lady clean her dentures, taking a shower out of a hose, bugs, cabins, sweat, tears, and lots and lots of anxiety. The first four days here have been nothing short of an adventure. I have quickly learned that everything I know and love and all that is within my comfort zone has been tossed out the window. I went from a fairly spolied american girl to a dirty and confused bum. As I was dropped off at the curb of the airport at 4:45 in the morning all alone it was there I realized that God was the only way this trip is possible. These past four days have pushed, stretched, and challenged me in ways I never thought possible. Day by day I am finding how even though I am scared, lonely, and feel completley unprepared for this journey, that God is SOOO strong in my weaknesses. Last night we had a time where we got to lay hands on each other and talked to God about what he wanted us to show other people and what He wanted to communicate to others about us. I was rather skeptical at first but four people later, giving me the same message- I was sold. God had a firm and resounding message to me. Each person heard that God was telling me that He is empowering me and giving me strength and wisdom I never knew possible. One girl told me when she laid hands on me all she could hear was God saying “this is where your supposed to be, this is where your supposed to be.” With tears in my eyes I realized that for some reason God has brought me to this exact point in my life. As I board a plane tomorrow night to a foreign African country I am still puzzled by what Gods plans for me are. However, I am certain that as much as Africa needs me, I may need Africa even more. This journey set before me is the biggest leap of faith I have ever taken. You know they say if you want the biggest rewards you must take big risks. I am certain that God is asking me to lay everything aside and to surrender my friends, family, boyfriend, and comforts of everyday so that my hands may be free to openly accept the incredible blessings he has in store. God is SOOOO good and is teaching me that He who is in me is greater than any fear or anxiety I could possibly be have. So with that I will board the plane tomorrow with confidence and courage knowing that He goes before me and that why I know not whats in store the next 3 and half months, I know for certain that He who began a good work in me will carry it on unto completion, and for that I smile and dance in Gods love 🙂
