Right now I am on top of the world. I don’t even know how to describe the incredible feeling that I have because of what God is doing in my life. Life here in Swazi is so amazing. God is pushing me like never before. We have seen Him moving in so many small ways but I have this hunger for more. I want to see God, see His hands at work, I know He is capable of big things. I cannot get enough of Him. Three days ago we decided as a team to fast for two days and really listen to God. We wanted to come together as a team in unity. I decided to just spend the day on a “Abba and Me” date. I didn’t take anything with me; no journal, bible, or music, just the two of us. As I walked in the field with the sun beating down on my body I found shade under a tree. I felt Him right beside me. My body was so tired from fasting but somehow I managed to stay awake! I am sure glad I did because God really spoke to me. He is teaching me to trust Him. The closer I get to God and the people I am here with, the more I fall in love. Yesterday we went to a new care-point, as I sat and just looked at all the children I wondered what God wanted from me. Where did he want me to go, who was I supposed to hold, where can I serve? I was sitting on a cinder block when a few children came over. The baby boy was the one that caught my eye. His eyes were crossed and he just looked so tired like he needed a place to sleep. I felt like God was telling me to pray healing and rest over him but I was scared. What if I wasn’t supposed to pray or would I look crazy praying over this baby? As I sat there discussing with God whether I was to pray for him or not Rachel looked at me and said “Mere Bear… Pray for him”. Could God tell me any clearer?? I picked him up and the song that came to my head first was Healing Rain by Michael W. Smith. I don’t really remember what I sang over him but I changed the lyrics to what God was telling me. It was an incredible feeling looking down at this little baby sleeping on me and just at peace. My arms were getting tired so I went and sat down with him. As I looked at his precious little face I felt something weird on the side of his head. I looked to see what it was and there were two tumors. This hit me hard. With my history of tumors and being scared that it might come back all I could do was pray. I cried out that God would take care of him and heal him of whatever was going on in his little body. I know for a fact that God is going to heal him. It may not be while I am here, but he WILL be healed! Before we left, while he was still sleeping, I kissed his eyes. I passed him off to his older sister and prayed that the next time he opens those dark brown eyes they would be straight. I didn’t know if I would ever see him again. Today we are going to go back to that care-point and I cannot wait to see him. I am super excited!!! Pray that I will be more confident when I hear from God and trust what He is saying!
Love,
Mere
