The more time I spend in Africa the more I fall in love with the country, the people, and most importantly God. At the beginning of this trip I was very hesitant at what to expect. Coming on a trip with eleven other girls is scary! It took me forever to open up to them and I couldn’t figure out why. I found out it was trust issues, I don’t why I had such bad trust issues but now that my walls are torn down I feel so free. I love all of these girls! They are all such a blessing and encouragement in my life. The past two weeks of living in Nsoko have been absolutely amazing. Leaving Manzini was extremely hard for me. I was sad that the people we had just spent the last month with, we could possibly never see again. When we got to our homestead, that we will spend the rest of our time at, it was so much more than I had expected. We have running water, bathrooms inside, a tractor trailer crate in our back yard, tons of land to roam around and kids around all the time! What more could one want 🙂 On the second night we were at our home Michelle, Emily, Emma and I decided to go out and sit out on our new favorite spot to look at the stars, the crate, and listen to music. We started out just talking and taking crazy pictures but it quickly turned into an amazing worship time. As I laid there in the dark on top of a crate in the middle of Swaziland, Africa, soaking in the presence of the Holy Spirit it hit me. Jesus died to take away all the stuff that I was still carrying. Why was I still holding on to all the things of my past? We began making declarations and shouting out praises to God. I was not content sitting on the crate anymore, I needed to run, or do something. I wanted to give everything that I had been holding on to over to God. I jumped down off the crate and sat in the dirt field not far from the crate but far enough that no one could see me well. Laying there I cried out that God would take off the things I had been holding on to for so long. He brought to mind all the things that I still held tight to and was forgiven for a long time ago. More of the team came out to join the worship time and be freed from the past. That night was crazy, unlike any experience I have every had with God. All those things I was carrying will be left in that field. I am so glad my girls were there with me to experience what happened. I was fully exposed, there wasn’t a part of my life that I was holding back, all my walls finally came down. God is moving in my life and He is putting a passion in my heart that I cannot begin to put into words. The things I just shared are just the tip of the iceberg of what God is doing here in Nsoko. We are doing so much more in ministry and it is so much fun!!! The more I seek after God the more He does in my life and reveals what His will for my life is. Please be praying that I would continue to seek after Him more each day and that I will listen to what He is saying.
with LOVE <3
Mere
