I arrived at training camp expecting something completely different. I was very wrong! I showed up to training camp burdened with doubt .For one, I was extremely worried about being in a huge group of all girls (I think it’s like 24 maybe??). So naturally, I came here scared that I wouldn’t fit in and that no one would like me blah blah blah. The usual selfish, insecure stuff. Oh how I was wrong! The girls who I have gotten to know over the past few days are some of the nicest girls I have ever met. I am so excited to be able to call them my family for the next two months!! We have become so close already!! Maybe it was because we had to build a shelter and camp out in it together (how we fit all of us in that shelter is beyond me!). Or maybe it’s the fact that we seem to all have the same sense of humor. Whatever it is, I am truly blessed to have met them and so excited to spend this time with all of them! God knew what He was doing when He put us all together!
The past three days have been amazing, and they have been a time of severe (but in a good way) spiritual growth for me. It would take at least a day to tell everything I have already been through here. So, I will just have to give one example. I was worrying… again… but this time I was doubting myself. I did not feel qualified to be here. I have never been on a mission trip before. How am I supposed to go tell others about Christ when I have never done this before?!? What if I say or do the wrong thing?? Am I on the right path??? Well God has to have a sense of humor, because two of the sweet girls on my team spoke some serious words of wisdom over me last night during an exercise. After praying for each other, we told each other what we felt God wanted to say to each of us. One told me to go boldly without fear. The other told me that my transition into Africa will go smoothly. Really?? I had told NO ONE about my doubts!! So spooky! I definitely have to chalk that one up to the Holy Spirit speaking through them!!
Needless to say, I am now officially doubt/worry free!! But for real… it’s completely amazing! I cannot wait to get on that plane tomorrow to South Africa (16 hour flight woo!) and then the catch a bus (or whatever it will be) to Manzini!! God has been so amazingly awesome to me. The people of Swaziland already have my heart. I cannot wait to show Christ’s love to them, and for them to show Him to me!!
