My heart is aching currently.This first week of ministry has already
wrecked my heart and made it stronger in more ways than I could have ever
imagined.The beautiful babies here love
with an unconditional love that I wish I could emulate.They remind me of Jesus. I am so thankful for
that.I want to learn to love like these
children.They
have literally nothing and still smile, giggle, and shine the light of Christ
in every moment.
My days usually consist of me sitting on a rock, tree, tire,
or simply in the dirt holding the hands of at least 3 babies at a time.All of which are fighting to sit on my
lap.No words are necessary.Simply feeling the warmth of my hand is
enough for them.I look into their
beautiful brown eyes and smile praying silently for the Lords face to shine
through mine.I just want these little
dirt and pee covered munchkins to feel the LOVE, Jesus and I have for
them.I pray daily that the Lord will
give me his heart for these beautiful children. I want nothing more than to hold them forever.
I was crushed inside to find that these children would
rather sit quietly in my arms then ever play a game.Childhood is supposed to be filled with
wonder, imagination, and exploration. These children are more like adults than I feel like I am.They care for each other, fend for each
other, and comfort each other.One of
the beauties got knocked over, she cried of course but the most comfort she
felt did not come from a white girl, it came from her three year old friend who
helped her up, rubbed her back, and kissed her forehead.They are all each other need.
The Lord is teaching me to be thankful in every moment.He is teaching me to simply be quiet, that
love doesnt mean words that come out of your mouth.Love is caring for people with all you have,
even if that means you dont have worldly items.I am so excited to spend every day while I
am here giving these beautiful children my hand, sitting quietly with them, and
giving them every ounce of my heart.I
continue to see needs I know that I will not be able to meet while I am
here.This can be discouraging but I
will do all I can while I am here.Please
pray for all of these beautiful babies! Pray that they feel Christs love
through all of us, and that we all rely fully on the Lord to love them.My human love is not enough for these
children.They deserve so much more I
need to be filled with the Lord.
Thanks to all of the wonderful people praying for us all
back home!We miss you all and
appreciate all you are doing for us.
