So, I have attempted to write this Blog thingy 2 other times already and neither have worked out. And now, I have kind of lost some motivation to retype once more. So, today was a good day! Worship is always one of my favorite parts (I feel like I could worship Him forever!) but, we did this exercise that focused on quieting ourselves and listening to God. I loved it (: I was praying over Cameron, a fellow amazing Swazinight, and God this moved through me and had me pray what was needed to be prayed. And then Emily, another Swazinight but I do believe that I wont be spending too much time with her this summer sadly, just prayed that I would have compassion and soften my heart. Which really spoke to me, I went on a walk, asked Rebekah (another Swazinight) if she wanted to come but she decline because she wasnt too fond of the dark, and only was on the trail for not even a minute and saw this random chair sitting out in this clearing. So, without even thinking, I just walked to the chair and sat down. My pants got soaked but I didn’t care! I turned off my headlamp and just listened. I began to have this question just repetitively run across my mind and it was “what is love?” I know that many would answer with the lyrics of “baby don’t hurt me, don’t hurt me, no more.” But, love, true love, the love God has for us, does not consist of pain, lying, or betrayal. This love is never ending, pure, and unfathomable. I just reflected on that and I just felt at peace. Through all the chaos and mysteries and nearing trip I just felt peace. God’s peace! So, (no offense to Rebekah; I enjoy your company but I think God wanted me on my own tonight) but I am glad she wasnt able to come. I loved my alone time with God. Loved it (: reminded me of one of my favoritest Bible verses. It is Philippians 4:6 (not going to type it, but instead challenge you to look it up yourself). So that is my prayer, that I would rely solely on God’s love that He has for me. I am His son and He is my Father. I love Him so much!!
P.S. this is my first blog ever! So i do not know if I gave you too much information, talked about the wrong things, or if it was just plain awful! i would like to ask for your feedback. I just typed what was on my heart. So let me know if you don’t mind (:
